la terra del sognatore

2010-12-11T09:11:00.000-08:00

+ I get mad easily nowadays. even tho I try to push the anger back down, it sometims comes out anyway. plus, my little sister got a very sinister hallucination, so mum has to take her to the psychologist. I didn't get it, then mum would say that I was stubborn and immature, etc, etc. she may consider me a bit slow in realising things weren't quite normal. but yah, what else could I say?

+ I have to revise my paper, make some changes and stuffs. dude, achieving this state of mind was pretty difficult. my mid smt result, it makes me think I'll be taken as youth driven to clean out the dead wood.

+ I became more solitude, like I was kind of fidgety as I met a lot of people I didn't get comfortable. how the ruddy hell. funny enough that hasn't been a problem now. 

+ I just can't stop looking thru that photo. same hair do, those well-groomed, black and lustrous eyebrow that have caused me actual physical pain once or twice, never cease to amazed me. and I was like, shite. my stomach lurched and nauseous and I hate this kinda feeling which gives me the emotional equivalent of brain freeze.

+ I'm craving for a lifetime holiday. I seriously need a cool day riding.

Over champagne.

2010-11-12T07:19:00.000-08:00

+ :sembilan bulan! percaya nggak? sembilan bulan! kok gue belum maju-maju sih ya, hahaha.

- : din...aaah :(

+ : nyantai kali. gue masih inget baunya loh ngomong-ngomong. sniff sniff.

- : keluarin aja din, nangisin aja. gapapa kok.

+ : ??

_ : itu muka lo udah merah. mata lo udah berembun gitu nahan nangis.

+ : ini alergi, bukan nahan nangis.

hahaha, it's funny in a sad sort way.too deep for irony, too appalling for laughter. no. actually it seeks favours. I weep uncontrollably and complete with lots and lots of mucus.

abruptly abandoned.

2010-10-18T22:21:00.000-07:00

It's good for the soul to get away from civilization sometimes, don't you think so?

llort-hsikrej-eht;bil

2010-10-11T02:53:00.000-07:00

I suppose, this was the point where my underlying uneasiness over several aspects of yours began to move onto a more conscious level. nothing definite. my old brain reasoning where there wasn't much reason. this is totally bizare. au revoir, monsieur. 

2009-12-12T03:30:00.000-08:00

I love to read newspaper or magazine while having my lunch. yesterday, i was about to read the main article on Kompas when mom called me and shown me this article -----> click (that page has a different picture from what I saw on newspaper,both of me and my brother screamed because it went worse)
I can't hold my tears. it's sad to know the fact that I can help them and do something, lame.

( okay,let's pretend that you-don't-know-exactly-what-is-on-my-picture is pangolin.I drew it behind my english assignment,uh.)

p.s : I found my negative thoughts irksome,and yes. I need harsh cleaning.

sugar-stained.

2009-12-11T02:52:00.000-08:00

have you ever felt that your contribution had fallen on deaf ears?
empty?died?anything?
is it okay that i'm feeling tired of healing my self to pleased others?

i just don't know why i keep asking questions which i know exactly what the answer is and become pretty aloof lately.new friends and old friends.some are no closer than we were before and some are good like no other.i'm pretty tired talking about people changed,bragging and crying.i'd stop doing some idiotic actions like that--menstruating heart.i'm really okay now with those stuff now, but feel awkward to know my self for let all happened and didn't feel anything.It’s not easy, and it doesn’t always work, but it helps to have a goal: forget the past.

there are several unconscious things in this world, such as ants on your coffee mug, ink stained behind your white collar--i don't know how much my hair fall until i realize they're plenty of strands on my floor.my hair grew longer and longer each day so i'm going to cut them off.
uh,blabbering a lot.

2009-11-18T05:46:00.000-08:00

can't wait to see them!
i wonder how Boggis, Bunce and Bean look alike and kind of song that local children sing to taunt the three farmers.when i was a kid,i was glad when the book ends with the indication the three will be waiting forever.Roald Dahl is a sort of genius :)

2009-11-01T06:01:00.000-08:00

i was watching the inglourious basterds with my pals several days ago. actually, i don't really like to watch some kind of movie like that in cinema. i prefer watch it with my dad on dvd.but it was not me who bought the ticket, i was come late with shika and chaiyna. so yeah yeah,then we go.

but,i like this film very much. i love to examine the accent of each actors. it was funny to saw hitler slamming his hand on a table and cried, "Nein nein nein nein nein nein! "
hahaha and the funniest part is when shika poked me and asked, "which one is brad pitt?"
oh my god. that's ironic. it's like your not living on earth or you were a creature that comes from 1000 before century.
let's skip this miserable part.

ah ya, and let me introduce you with the jew bear : donny donowitz !
there's no something special with him. it just, when brad pitt called him out of his cave and he came with his baseball stick,ready to smash nazis, he looked beautiful with his xxl volume eyelashes ----- shika thoughts he's a bit gay.
also his partner, omar ulmer. his eyes makes him very much alike hush puppies.

mind my fugly picture (if only i have a good scanner) . i just want to doodling at that time. and a thousand pardons for mr. pitt , despite his georgeous acting, i'm unable to display his photos here.my laptop is getting lame and it's a bed time already.

2009-10-25T07:59:00.001-07:00

aloha

how long since i'm not updating my blog? uh,very sorry. i'm on 11th grade now,been busy with the hectic schedule,too busy sticking my nose into every corner poking around for things to complain about,school tasks, mid-semester test, adapting new system--friends, remedial remedial and remedial.

besides,twitter is really tempting. i'm just having some "writer's block", got the point where i couldn't write, not even a word. actually, i like to write about thematic things on my blog. but on twitter, you can write your random thoughts, or anything comes to your mind.

several things happended to me lately. mostly boring, but some of them comes with surprises. i'm getting closer to my girlfriends each day. actually, i don't really care about having a girlfriends. no, i mean i do care with my girlfriends but deep down inside i was like " oh, not having a girlfriends can't stop me going on. i have a boyfriends anyway,"
but there's a brand-new bounding inside me, like " wow,this is different."
they're not just talking about boys. even if they say i'm a good adviser, talking about boys is boring. my friend, talitha loves to shake my tummy with her slaptic-proffesional-female singer-look a like-act. and shika,chaiyna and others <3 and,oh melodi had become a great great girlfriend. but it's pretty annoying when she had to go with her boyfie. urgh, i hate that.

a thousand pardons. i want to write about many thing, a wish list, something inside me. but,hey we can make it later,right?

2009-09-16T23:01:00.000-07:00

Okay,so these days,i'm currently listening to the temper trap. ah ya,you must be know that their song, sweet dispotition is one of the soundtrack from 500 days of summer .And when i saw the picture of their lead singer,i was like " his face is familiar.soo causcasian,like indonesian!"

and yes,the vocalist, Dougy mandagi --was born and raised in indonesia.he's living on Bali but now he's working on the urban outfitters of Australia. so,he did fashion merchandise.

I'm not knocking on 'em. they have a such a pretty music, i think. but i do love their songs,really.

2009-09-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

It feels like someone kicked you in the stomach, feels like your heart stopped beating, feels like that dream you know the one when you are falling and you want so desperately to wake up before you hit the ground but its all out of your control, you cant trust anything anymore, no one is who they say they are, your life is changed forever.

---i'm not that lucky.so,i don't think something good will come after the whole-ugly experience.

2009-08-17T04:00:00.000-07:00

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Emily : Brendan, I know you're mad at these people because you think I went away from you and went to them but, you need to start seeing it as my decision. Stop getting angry because where I want to be at, is different from where you want to be at.
Brendan Frye : Who fed you that line, Em?
Emily : Stop picking on Dode. He's a good guy.
Brendan Frye : The pie house rat?
Emily : He's a good friend.
Brendan Frye : So, what am I?
Emily : Yeah, I mean what are you? Just sitting back here, hating everyone? Who are you to judge anyone? God, I really loved you a lot. I couldn't stand it. I had to get with people. I couldn't have a life with you anymore.

Brick(2005)

2009-08-17T02:47:00.000-07:00

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

2009-08-16T07:48:00.000-07:00

it was gawky to be a birthday girl.but yeah,i had a blast!

Hello!

Last Thursday was my birthday. to be frank with you, i don't really like birthday. besides,birhtday event isn't something important for me. People shook your hands and wish for happy birthday. You get older,you have to be mature.Even my mom and dad forgot with my birthday. But it's okay for me.

This year,my birthday is kinda different. Unexpectedly,my friend gave me a surprise!
it feels like Oh-my-God. I am more than excited!

I can't tell you how it feels like. It's so UUUUH and YEAHHS
so, thanks a lot for Shika and Andre (for being that sweet) , Talitha (for the pencil case) , Ola , Chaiyna and others. I'll never forget this,oh ya i swear.

okay,okay i'm speechless.

Lutfhi's

I still wondering How and why. I don't know,it just,sweet.hahaha
For my dismay,my number one and number two didn't be the first to wish me happy birthday. But,no problemo. It's paid now.

I am sixteen and think that i'm still lack of estrogen.
one years left,

2009-08-03T03:00:00.000-07:00

I am so sorry for my lack of updates,due to a lot of tasks.I do want to post a lot. Maybe later, after my math test.wish me luck :)

2009-08-03T02:38:00.000-07:00

welcome!

August,9th 09

2009-07-20T03:01:00.000-07:00

Rainy days!


Huh?

+
...Cloudy days, or sunny days...which do you like?

-
...uh..Cloudy days...

+
Oh, we're alike!

2009-07-18T08:25:00.000-07:00

People ask,and i leave.
I just feel so angry all the time. Feels like something go wrong inside me.
It just,
I don't like the feeling.
I don't like anything happened this time.
Sorry,but i can't be little miss nice nowadays.You just don't know how it feels like to cry for no reason on the corner of the library.

don't take it seriously.I am going to watch Harry Potter and everyhthng will be okay.

2009-07-12T05:38:00.001-07:00

Fool.
I Wonder if you know yourself at all.
you know that it could be so simple

2009-07-11T08:35:00.000-07:00

I forgot to tell my mom before she put my jeans on washing machine,that there was a tissue on its pocket. Now i'm on the trouble. I am pretty sure my mom will be mad at me tomorrow. Bloody crap.

2009-07-08T07:27:00.000-07:00

Goodbye Four-flusher!

2009-07-06T08:17:00.000-07:00

the fat woman on the picture is nasi uduk seller near my house. I'm addicted to nasi uduk nowadays.but where is she? it's been a week since she closed her kiosk. oh myyyy i am craving for nasi uduk now,and bakso taman solo.

p.s : i am sorry.i know i need to post something more interesting than this junk.

Neverland,never more

2009-07-04T07:53:00.000-07:00

Nowadays,i've become so interested when i see new updates on my twitter about Michael Jackson from CNN or Kompas.

the more i know about him,the more i got confused.i feel sorry about him,especially about his child abused.but actually,i am a little bit afraid of his face. i strongly remember,when i was a child, i used to read my mom's magz before i take a nap and there was an article about him,with his closed-up photo on it. i throw-up the magazine and i can't hardly sleep. until i heard about his neverland ranch.

creepy amazing.but it such an eerie for me.

the ferris wheele

the zipper

the litograph of michael jakcson with childrens at the front gate (credit to:Jonathan Heaber)

Now that Michael’s Ranch no longer exists, owned shadow of its former self. I don’t judge Michael based on what the media presented him to be. he is the real legend.may you rest in peace,michael joseph jackson.your dreams will always live on.

2009-07-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

I am sorry,i know it's been like an age since my last post.I didn't meant to brag.but in fact,i just stayed at home along this holiday. this is so uggghh.mom said she has a lot of things to do.I knew that and i won't ask.
i need to re-establish my plan B. Since i got social class,while my cousins got science! it hurts--yah,a little.wtf with physics and chemistry and bla bla bla. but i'll miss biology soo bad.

well,i don't really care,besides there were some real brain-teasers in my life. they got me brassed off,crap. the best thing is,i can gather around with my old friends. guess how much i miss them!
by the way,i am too lazy to post the picture.you can see the photos on Luthfi's. my face looks like a corps bride.oh man.

i also tried to cook an omelete,with luthfi.we mixed tobasco and cheese in to the egg. it tastes good! i'm serious. actually,i don't cook,and i can't.even i need a help to crack the egg! oh God,feels like my head burned with shame.I am awful at cooking. but i do want to learn. once,i learn about how to cook fettucini with andre.and yah,it works.

gotta go, i have to find some inspiration to make something special for my friend's upcoming birthday. the birthday is so faaaaaar far away.but i want to make it happen not just a trashy talk.
i'll keep you posted.see ya

2009-06-25T09:46:00.000-07:00

i do love biology
--but i don't really like chemistry.
math sucks.
and physics is the-hell-with-it-lesson in the world

oh Lord,please give me one more chance pleaseee. I know i just have a slim chance.
you just don't know how it feels like,to be seen as underdog.

please please please..amin allahumma amin

2009-06-25T09:40:00.000-07:00

It's really quite something to see you all-grown-up like this. I'd love to know what you're doing now. I can't help but feel I had some small part in how you turned out.

2009-06-22T22:00:00.000-07:00

I do love Tom. Tim is gorgeous. But i think,Richard really got the talent.

I am listening to the frog prince for thousand times, everyday before i take a nap. my friends frequently caught me red handed when I added Keane on their playlist on iPod. Some of their songs boost me a quick spirit--as well as coldplay did.

I would loved to live in britain or anywhere in europe to be able to see you guys. I love radiant people.

2009-06-20T07:46:00.000-07:00

I found this diorama on flickr. Cute and oh-so-eye catching. Can you make it for me? One set will do :)

Klaus, Count Olaf, and Violet. yeah,violet looks really different here,empty-headed. oh,of course. this is diorama

and...Sunny

I told you that i want to buy Amelia's notebook on my older post. Well, I am not sure. Vicky already bought it (hey, you broke your promise,ko!) but yeah, that book will cost a much. I think, the price is not worth it for me. The plus from the books it just a lux paper. Oh, and its full color with an attractive illustration,which i love.

Hmm, but it'll be better if i buy mitch albom's, or agatha christie (I'm on miss maple-mood again,nowadays). I love agatha christie. you can see a sharp-intelligent-sighted on her eyes.
oh and i really really need to buy The Slippery Slope and The Grim Grotto. I heard Violet shared a kiss with Quigley! Okay, i know this is so last year for you. I don't care I don't care. I need to buy it ASAP!

but the best part is... my treasure box is empty.and I am waiting for my mom or my granny,or anyone else to give me some money,Darn it!

X.O.X.E

2009-06-19T21:40:00.000-07:00

credit for Andre
XE LANJUTKAN!

Bener-bener nggak kerasa udah hampir setahun.waktu masuk Labschool aja gue nangis-nangis ya sampe ngambek 3 hari cemberut terus,ibu gue ngerasa bersalah.Apalagi waktu masuk pertama-tama nya itu suasana nya nggak enak. Sekarang Alhamdulillah udah enak banget,tapi tau-tau udah mau pisah aja gitu.ya ampun, beneran enak banget.bener-bener aku cinta XE,haha.

who cares with this crappy-pathetic faces?

my girls

See ? you depraved me guys,haha. I was lacked the courage at first. But now? from freshman to mad cow.whoa,lovey-dovey.I'll be missing you a tons from the tons! who doesn't?

I am craving for holiday !

2009-06-15T03:23:00.000-07:00

more millimeter block. Thanks, Talitha! :))

There's soo much plan on my head to spend my time while holiday. Sure, i can go to the cinema everyday, movie marathon, or juggling on internet and oh oh late night snacks, skipping my bed time. I can read a lot lot lot of books without my mom being grumpy and blah blah. My friend asked me to go to perpustakaan nasional which is a good idea for me. Visiting my old pals. But frankly, I want to do something different for this holiday. yeah, think about that later.

For the beginning, yesterday,I started to watch my favourite animation ever, Finding Nemo !
I do love this film. I'm a little bit scared when Nemo went to the top of Mount Wanna-hock-a-loogie. haha.

P.Sherman, 42 Wallaby Way, Sydney.

gimme some fin , Noggin', Dude!
(I love Crush, and his cutiewobbly son,Squirt)

But ,Tomorrow I have to go to Lakespra on Cawang because of Comet - Navigasi Labs. Actually, I don't really want to go, because yeaaaa I don't want to.
I started to make a list for packing (I hate packing!) then I started to write underwear on the top of my list but.. i think everything started with underwear it's not a good point. Hmm okay, i am going to write down "3 pc of pocky" or "chacha" or yaa anything.
I'll See you on Thursday or Friday or--next week.

P.S : Mom told me Big Bird was GAY. it's bad enough.

2009-06-13T08:47:00.000-07:00

why do people get a pimple nowadays? Plenty of girls and boys in love.

2009-06-13T08:27:00.000-07:00

CLICK to enlarge. ( So fugly,again.haha).

XE itu enak banget banget kelasnya. anaknya juga asik. tapi gue kalo gila-gilaan atau gosip, berbagi rahasia sama mereka deketnya.

Talitha
She is like a mother hen, you know.While me, as her friend, squeking all the time. no no i'm serious. She always trying to make sure that everyone is okay. And everytime I asked her "Talitha can you fold up my clothes?" or " My zipper stucked, talitha! i can't handle it.!" etc.etc. But she turns in to the most annoying girl when she act like a..what. but she is very very sensitive. It's okay, i know what i suppose to do. And she likes to bite a straw, and soon it become fully-filled with saliva! eeewww, okay enough enough.

Shika
She has an awkward mixed blood. what? batak - sunda? or batak-india? yeah yeah. You can put her in a crowd of chinese,her face help her to diffuse easily. She is like an evil, whoah! Her tongue as sharp as a claw,sometimes. But don't worry, she doesn't mean to. Sometimes she turns in to a mama.wise and blablabla.She loves everything related with homosexual.Gosh. But well, she has a weakness. Dogs and..polar bear? I am sorry. She has no ransel, but she has a lot of branded handbag,which are not worth it (hahaha). Well, just wait am I going to buy you a 30.000 euro of bottega veneta one day

Vicky
She has a pair of a bulls eye.I called him "ko" instead of "vicky". Only me called her like that. And i don't like if someone call her "ko" or "Vicko" too. Silly, right? I don't care. go find your own nickname. She is a nice girl, I told you. She is really helpfull,mark it. Her mother supply us with various-delicious foods everyday.Sometimes, i got angry with her. But yeah, put your mask on your face. I don't wanna ruin. She is a nice girl,I told you.And actually, she is beautiful. Oh, and i never see her without her braid. She must be beautiful.

Mesya
well hahaha, i like her because she is sooooo silly. Shameless, foolish. haha, not in a real meaning.
She just like " kerbau dicucuk hidungnya". It was easy to pick holes in her arguments. She is another BK - you know what does it mean- But, She is very kind. welalala. Still,she is dumb. I am soooorry. I know you won't read this. huahaha

Devina
She is Silly, crazy.Like a mad cow.What else? Oh my god, my head go throbbing. enough for Devin. hahaha. I called her "Drolls". Drolls means "Gumoh".

Chaiyna,
She is pretty. her hair makes talitha and shika jealousy. I like her. we usually sing along or cry together when we get a bad score. She know my dirty little secret and blabla.haha

Boys

Andre
He smells like potpourri and something like caramel.He is a little bit touchy,sensitive. Usually make some noise with " hah? hah? hah? " or " Aduuuh" in a shrill voice. That's soo iritating! He can't relax, i guess. Always turn into a fidgety in some situation. panicky person.Shika called him as a "grizly bear".His face look a like " ganyante banget sih lo ndre"But he is trustworthy. You can share your secret without any worry,for sure.And remember, he is creative.He got a nominee for the most creative on Labschool. Right, ndre?

Olav
He has a moony eyes. He But his grinn looks silly. I think, he know everything. From science, to movies, to songs to blablabla. everything i have to know. He looks calm, but he talks a lot. Almost talkative. I can have a chit-chat with him all day long without any boring. i guess. But i don't like his mustache. And hair over his face.

Niko
Should i desribe him? oh,okay then. He is a smart person.a boy with 145 IQ. A bright future husband - Shika thinks he will- But he likes to tell a-not-so-funny-jokes. no no, actually his jokes is not funny at all!
Sometimes act like a childish. Oh, c'mon Niko. You makes me sooo angry and confused like a " what shoud i do, Niko?" He is so annoying.Like a child who tried to find an attention.(That's Olav's theory) But overall, he is a nice boy and a good friend.

Tommy
just like niko, he is smart too. he likes to farting in class. no sounds, but smells stinky like oh God!
by the way,he is the first boy whom i texted 3 pages of"happy birthday" on 12 am. yeah, it was an accident of course. he showed my message and the time he received a message is appropriately at 12 am. haha.I like to ask him to teach me and talitha about math.

Beside them, there are Ola, Mazaya - usually called " Jay" - and icha luluk.
Ola and Mazaya are fight against "ANU". Icha luluk is calm, but she talk a lot about boys. Haha.I like her. Angestika loves to texting with her-dozen of-boyfriend.

ah udah ah capek dan pegel. love you ya,

Fear not for the future, weep not for the past

2009-06-02T06:07:00.000-07:00

I am sorry, I'm just a little bit dissapointed.
For my dismay, my name is not on the list. To be frank, This way i begin to jealous--which is like a very poisonous ivy for me. Yeah, i am your friend, and a good friend shouldn't do what I do. Well it's okay, it's okay. I just need a time for myself.Besides,every cloud has a silver lining, right?

Now I'm totally sick about my exam,and my task.

And I hate the way I have to be apart from XE. XE is such a very nice class, with a very nice friends, and my special people (I'll tell you later) Yeah, and my mom entreated me to not browsing on the internet, or buy a novel or even a magazine!
oh, but I'm waiting forward to holiday. Spending my time with my friends in...what? a cottage?
it must be fun!
By the way, this is the last day I'm on XE! We had a little party with cocktail and brunch and strike a pose,of course.haha. I am going to tell you after my exam. And I'm still waiting for the pictures from my friends SLR. I gotta go now. See ya

2009-05-31T04:26:00.000-07:00

Next week I have an exam (This way I begin to worry), so now I try to download songs as much as I can

The Rumble Strips

The Decemberist

Mstrkrft(This one is also for Radella)

Forever The sickest Kids ( And this one is for Olav) Paris is Burning, Manic street peachers, Phantom Planet - Oh yeah, there is my mighty-hotty alex greenwald there. and Indonesian song too,Anda (with his song title : tentang seseorang in ost. Ada apa dengan cinta.remember? haha. I like that song,silly huh? okay,I don't care if you think this is soo menye or something. hahaha) And sooooo much more.

Okay, I have to go. Mom is behind me, still watching what I'm doing. see ya!

2009-05-30T09:09:00.000-07:00

Make me as a special

About growing up -just skip this one

2009-05-30T05:27:00.000-07:00

I feel useless sometimes.
I can play the piano, but I can't even read the partiture. And I can't make a song. Yeah, no doubt about it. You said I can do this and that and this and that. And once you put me in the situation whereI have to do something that you thing I can do but in fact i can't do it well, my brain distorsed and I can't hardly sleep.

You said my english is good,but ooooh God, can't you see? This super duper bad grammar?
Even my lil cousin can do better!

however, now i'm feel like a half-grown bird flying.Trying to get out from the cage. Become a rebel. Turn to someone else, feels like no one could beat my temper. Oh, I don't like the phase to be grown-up.My stomach started to growling every time I have a chit-chat with the-6-vocals-on-it-names, try to throw up that feeling.Thinking about my future.
Lack of estrogen? yes please, if it can make me stop thinking about that, scrub it from my mind.
Is it normal?

And I started to be afraid to losing my friends in XE.
So weak, I feel upset now.

My Booooyss

2009-05-29T09:03:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah yeah,
he's georgeous. But He's a Junkie. I guess my mom won't be happy,haha.

Impressive

Oh yeah,pete pete pete

I am sorry, I have no passion to writing at this moment. I change my mind, today feels so exhausted,crap.

Friday!

2009-05-29T06:49:00.000-07:00

Halo!
hari ini seru deh soalnya gue nggak bisa berhenti ketawa gara-gara Devin,Vicky dan delon dengan jokes mereka yang nggak jelas.Gue juga nggak ekskul perkusi loh hari ini karena udah selesai ambil nilai. Hore!
Walaupun begitu, tetep aja ada yang nangis. Shika dan Mazaya dan kedua-dua nya karena masalah yang sama yaitu : Boys.
oh ya ya, crap. I know what it feels like,guys :(

Oh, dan gue juga bantuin Tommy, Olav, Dani untuk buat tugas seni rupa. Buat batik pake cara printing. Sebenarnya gue mau bantu banyak, tapi nggak bisa. Soalnya mereka udah keburu nyampur-nyampur cat nya segala macem. Jadi gue cuma bantu megangin atau apalah,lagipula konsep nya juga beda antara gue sama mereka. Mereka kan cowok, sukanya simple. Semua di blok jadi warna hitam terus dikasih merah sama totol orange udah selesai. Tapi berantakannya itu loh, bukan main sampe kotor banget dan gue juga ikut-ikutan kotor kayak alay. Terus Vicky ketumpahan cat "celaka" gara-gara berusaha notol-notolin cat hitam ke gue. Parah deh sumpah.

Tapi satu hal yang bikin gue kepikiran adalah tugas seni musik, disuruh buat lagu. Ya ampun, kelompok gue nggak ada yang bisa main musik. Dan semuanya langsung menuding gue untuk buat lagu. Sumpah gue nggak bisa! Tapi emang bikin nge-drop juga sih. Cuma gini ya,
Just because i can play a nocturne, Fur elise, or Bella's lullaby on piano or whatever you name it, it doesn't mean i can make a song! I am not Mozart, of course. But you asked me to make a song and I can't hardly sleep because I don't know how to make a song and I don't know!
Yaudahlah, cari bareng-bareng aja ya, Insya Allah beres tanpa terlihat memalukan.

By the way, Tommy besok ulangtahun!
Happy birthday ya Tommy! Semoga tambah baik, tambah pinter jangan capek-capek ajarin math ke gue ya. Yang salah bukan cara lo kok, emang gue nya aja bego nggak ngerti-ngerti. Gue tau lo punya masa depan yang cerah-gemilang. hahaha (anyway,Tommy is the most respectful guy I've ever seen --- eh nggak juga deh.nggak.)

Sorry, no picture for today. foto masih di handphone dan kamera gue oh-so-damned-jatuh-dan-rusak. Kapan-kapan aja ya.

2009-05-24T01:05:00.000-07:00

I can't pretend like I don't care or blablabla blablabla.
I can't just say : Go find your way, get off. because we were a part.
You have your own. I know you are. I got mine too. But I miss you, really really miss you.
It doesn't matter how people look from the outside,D. It tastes the same,trust me. I don't know what were you thinking. But don't mess my plan. I just want to meet you, have a lot of conversation. Please please, I'm begging you.

Finally !

2009-05-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

i just watched angels and demons with Vicky, Andre, and Olav. Talitha is on Lembang to "Tafakur Alam". ya ya, not sooo important. Shika was ill, and on the way to gading, she called and told us that she want to watch angels and demons too. I am so sorry shika : ( it just a little too late, girl.
while Niko act like a childish. I am sorry niko, you're such a good boy and a good friend but arrrgggh you made me mad with your behavior, jadi gak jadi jadi gak jadi. ngeselin banget sih. I am so sorry but i wished you join us at first.

I like that film but a little disapointed when i found that film seems a little bit different from the novels. Hmm, you have to read the novel first. Dan Brown is such a brilliant man. What's on his head, actually? I guess It just a little crinkly-greyish-brain, right?
But yeah, the film was great. Tom Hanks looks so mesmerized.

After that, we went to foodcourt to find some snacks. We had a lot of chit-chat and gossip.Then Olav had to go home earlier. His driver was waiting him already.Oh, and guess what, i found this on Periplus

georgeous.But mom told me to not buy any books after the final exam. God! Vicky said she wants to buy it, and perhaps she can lend me. I know she will, she is such a nice girl but i want it to be mine! So Vicky bought a magazine with rob pattinson and kristen stewart on it cover while Andre pick an origami paper with animals print. cute!

Well, thank you guys. you really make my day :)

2009-05-21T04:54:00.000-07:00

fugly ha? yeah, i can't found "how to recognize a witches" on the internet. so i decided to made it by my own. hahaha. by the way, which one do you think is the real witch? the right one? oh then you'll die. because the real witch is the left one. haha. You can found how to recognize a witch on roald dahl's, "the witches". You-Must-read-it-book.

well, my lil brother was reading about "fantastic mr.fox" by roald dahl -he is my favourite author ever- and suddenly i remember about "the witches" the other roald dahl's . when i was child my first roald dahl's book is "matilda".then when i was 8 or 9 or 10, i bought a book in a retired corner at goro groceries store ( I missed goro so much. you can go around with your trolley and there are several wonderful corner -yes, that's a wonderful place for such a little girl like me at the moment- such as a mini pet shop -which only sells fish and turtles- planty, and toys.now goro going bankrupt.what a pitty..)

the first time i read it, there's a feeling like de'javu. like i have seen a film with the same story like the witches.Then i started to find "the witches" on imdb and taraaaa the film does exist!

This is the grandhigh witch

And she turns into...

eeew! that's a real witch. they are bald, has a sharp claws, and grinning with their mouths full of blue saliva. actually, this pict makes me really freakin out. i wish i won't have a nightmare tonight. and I wish i have a Formula 86 Delayed Action Mouse Maker to abolish them. Shoo Shoo! I'll find the film on youtube as soon as possible.

well, i have to take a course tonight. sorry for the super duper bad grammar. haha.
see ya!

Weird

2009-05-20T08:19:00.001-07:00

Even now, you've started to talk about it.
What happened with the people? the surprising thing, how people can be easily changed in a matter of years.
I don't think i can make it. Trust me, i'd loved to love my bestfriends more than i loved my boyfriend.well,everbody's changing and i don't know why,for sure.

cry day

2009-05-19T05:45:00.000-07:00

misty eyed. tears. everybodys crying. no gossiping, no extreme jokes.
what happened with the people? even my girlfriend, who look like an evil (not evil in a real meaning of course) also crying.
i know i have no good in teenage love affair or something. but i know what it feels like.i'll help you as much as i can.
The good thing is, i feel okay today.
don't worry,i'll lend my shoulder to cry on.

oh, and i just watched riding a cars with boys
simply touching you know,I want to cry in certain parts of the film. yeah, yeah.
I love drew barrymore. she has a good looking with her red-o-hairy

I am sorry, to lazy to write the review.see ya,

I am not okay,

2009-05-17T02:56:00.000-07:00

What kind of feeling? I don't like this feeling. I can't expalain it.haha, feels like you wanna laughing and crying at the same time.
I don't like Sunday. As I grow up,Sunday doesn't feel like sunday. Sunday feels like a preparation to face any problems on the whole weeks that you will face. Especially when it comes to evening, gosh. I don't know. Tastes like a murky cloud. Feels like your head will play a memory about every single thing you like but you just can't hold it.

Oh, like you went to somewhere you liked but you didn't want to go home, or you spent a time with person you loved and don't want to end so fast. And I missed my old friends so bad :'(
Seems like I'll get a nightmare tonight.

yeah?

2009-05-16T19:52:00.000-07:00

I don't like the fact that i growing up,
and the fact that my hair is growing long everyday and so on and so on.
I hate the fact that i can't meet my old friends everyday, i don't even have a chit-chat with them everyday.
I hate the fact that i have to take a responsibility as a sister, the fact that i have to keep on the right track.
I just, i don't like it for sure.

2009-05-16T09:36:00.001-07:00

hello folks!